1,500th post! Per request by hoursoftemptation (who has an amazing blog, definitely check her out), here’s a song that means a lot to me. Sadly most have not heard it. First of all, Parachutes is a fucking outstanding album. It’s right up there with Ten and Madvilliany in my top 10 albums ever. It’s in the top 3 I’d imagine. This song and album have gotten me through some rough spots. Be it getting over one of my best friends committing suicide and a bad breakup at the same time or just needing a album to play while I concentrate on painting (I’ve recently taken up spray painting as a hobby, by the way), this album never fails. This song in particular though is special because it brings out the sadness that we all like to push back and keep bottled until it explodes while we’re in public or reminiscing on old times via Tumblr and wishing we hadn’t thought that far. It brings all the tears and frustration right out of me, seeing as how one of my main goals in life is to have a companion to enjoy life with. It’s kind of silly, but I just really hate being alone. But all I do when I’m not is worry about how terrible I must be to the person I’m with. It’s a tragic weakness that has made problems of otherwise good relationships with people. I’m very insecure, but I have an overwhelming sense of courage when I reach success. To the point of arrogance, another tragic flaw of mine. I’m pretty okay to know I guess, but I’m so afraid to be more than acquaintances with people because I’m afraid of making an ass of myself to the point of introversion. This song reminds me of people I’ve failed and relationships that will never be what they once were. People I’ve loved and lost. To Cody, to Danielle, to Kim, to Aunt Angela. You four stand out to me as examples to correct myself among the crowd. To always ask my friends how they’re doing when they look down, because you may not see them tomorrow. To honesty and commitment. To not letting time and distance take your mind off someone you love. To being there in support when people are at their worst. Because if you don’t do all of these things, you are at your worst. This is what this song/album mean to me.